Thursday, February 10, 2011

Bored of Television

So much has changed in the past month... I've gone back to school... I've been having horrible panic attacks, so I've been put on medication which I take nightly so that I don't get them. It kind of works, but I haven't been getting much sleep. At the moment I'm sick with some weird bug, I feel kind of like someone has been beating me over the head with a stick and in my stomach.

My main concern for tonight: To steal or not to steal my roommate's hydrocodone cough syrup. She doesn't need it, she's no longer sick. Figured I could prob cut it with water... at first I thought about doing it with other cherry flavored cough syrup, but I don't know, don't want to kill her or anyone else if she ends up taking it for some other reason in the future. It's just chilling there on her desk taunting me... it's very tempting, and I might take some... just to see how it goes... I don't know, boredom does not bring out my best qualities.

And umm... yeah... fuck it... I'll just take some...

I might as well, right? That won't hurt anyone...

Well, perhaps I"ll sign on later if it's awesome!
- Luce

2 comments:

RootYourDroid.net said...

just found your blog, you sound a lot like me.

i've battled with opiate addiction for quite some time.

i get off them and say "this is the last time" than a week later i start all over again.

I followed you blog! hope the medicine helps with your anxiety. i go through the same shit.

Gledwood said...

re the cough syrup, pour it out, pour something that looks the same into the bottle and either smash or spill the bottle on the floor and say you're really sorry. i know this is probably 2 months 2 late but hey it's an idea for next time

i hope you're ok. don't have any more panic attacks