Humidity hung thick, as we walked back down the street to find the deli for more beer. The empty blocks of warehouses covered in graffiti and piss reverberated as I yelled how all I wanted were some drugs, please. I guess it wasn't really helping the situation, as we stumbled 200 feet behind a friend and her two acquaintances (allegedly I kicked one of the acquaintances in the head, after announcing that I wouldn't), making sure not to draw any attention to ourselves. They disappeared into a store about a block ahead of us, which we followed them into.
WE HAD FOUND IT.
THE CLOSEST DELI.
Yeah, I know. Pretty anti-climactic. Sorry about that. I wanted to draw you guys in, I guess. I'll recap the last few months as quick as I can:
-dated really sweet guy, forced to break up with him because he was too needy
-dropped acid for the first time--I now understand the squirrels (we climbed trees all day in Central Park)
-ran out of speed
-bought pot for the first time in ages
-offered speed by a friend, who sadly ended up leaving for a trip before I could procure it from her
-was given NuVigil by another friend to help counteract the inability I have to being awake before 12:30
-and am now sitting here... recuperating from a night of beer, punk shows, and fights (not me fighting, but everyone else around us, at one point I was in a hallway with a fight going on at each end).
I've been journaling a lot, sadly not on here. (by a lot, I mean for the past few days on the train).
I'm gonna keep posting stuff here though. I'm just bored, and empty. Like, it's not the depression kind of empty, it's the when-I-look-to-gage-my-emotions-there-doesn't-seem-to-be-any-occurring empty. I'm excited to try the NuVigil, I just need to entertain my brain some more. I'm hopefully getting money to buy coke with this week. My friend has really good connects, and so I'm going to share a bit with her as a finders fee. I figure that's only fair, seeing as how she's working at this cafe with me, and new hires don't get paid for like a month and a half after they start. I don't know, I'm hoping that will entertain me for long enough.
Anyway, I'm mad tired, and distracted by some crazy vampire movie on SyFy...
I'll post later after I try the NuVigil and maybe about the acid.
Night kids!
- Lucy
P.S. Anyone get raptured yesterday?
I got a Gibson, without a case, but I can't get that even-tanned look on my face, ill-fitting clothes and I blend in the crowd, fingers so clumsy, voice too loud, but I'm one, I am one, and I can see that this is me, and I will be, you'll all see I'm the one...
